The Thinking Sapling

My mind still feels a bit foggy today, probably from a stressful month filled with projects, internship hunting, and final exams. My posting has been pretty infrequent lately because of it, and I honestly wish I had more energy to write something more meaningful.

The dorms are empty now, as expected when a term ends. I haven’t minded it too much, as I’ve spent most of my time rolling around in bed or handling paperwork for my internship, but the difference is noticeable. I’ve gotten used to there being people around. At the very least, I can usually count on saying hi to at least one person whenever I walk outside. Now, the paths are just empty, and I’m left alone with my thoughts.

Is that a bad thing? I honestly don’t know. It’s nice to have a sense of quiet solidarity while resting, but it also feels like something is missing. The warm smiles and small talk exchanged when passing each other certainly made the day feel a little more whole. Maybe I never really appreciated how much those moments meant, even when I was too tired for longer interactions. It’s easy to retreat inward when overwhelmed, and I suppose people being there reminds me that I don’t have to.

The future is going to be interesting, with the internship starting next week and new faces to meet. It will be an effort to get to know new people, but every bit of humanity counts. At least it counts in contrast to just going there nine to five, not talking with anyone, then coming back to an empty dorm for four months.

As for this blog, I’ll try to get back on a schedule of one post a week. I committed to rewriting my childhood poems recently, didn’t I? I’ll try to get one of those out by next week. There was a spike in the number of readers for the post announcing that commitment, with 30 people viewing it, no less! I have no clue how, but thank you for your interest.

To close off this post, if anyone who knew me this term stumbles upon this, I sincerely thank you for being there for me through it all. And thank you, dear reader, for sticking around.