The Thinking Sapling

My mind has been in an absolute tizzy since starting at university. The line of inquiry has often traced back to a simple “why?”. Why am I doing this? Not just university, but life in general. I’ve been attempting to provide answers for quite some time now, and this has generated a lot of random thoughts and tangents. Many of which now lost to time, which is a great shame. There might have been something fantastic that our previous self thought of that I could now no longer recall. Even if I’ve never had a good thought in my life, it’d at least provide a good chuckle.

I’ve honestly thought of writing for a while now, but every time I picked up a pen I would ask myself, why am I doing this? I’ve been wanting to compile my thoughts into a single place for a while now; to have them all in one placed and not scattered across my ever-drifting mind. I’ve tried writing poetry, diaries, and journals; however, I end up abandoning these within a few weeks or at most months, so why? I truly felt deep down that having these words put on screen or paper would be valuable for any future reflection by a distant future me. It was only recently I realised there was another desire.

When I draft, my imagination goes wild with thoughts of other people reading them. I often thought of how my friends, families, and even strangers would think of these thoughts. The image of sharing these thoughts with them was very alluring. Perhaps, it is self aggrandising, but having my ideas seriously considered by people appealed to my sentiments so greatly that now fear I’d have no one to share this with. My pens and notebooks could never achieve what completed the picture that was sharing it for others.

So what am I hoping to achieve with this project? If I’m being honest with myself, I hoping to satisfy my longing to put myself out there for others to see that includes you, friendly internet stranger. Though, let’s not get too excited. I’d be over the moon if even one of you should somehow stumble upon this. The person getting the most value out of this is me, who now has an easier way to monitor my growth and a new means to interact with people.

What can you expect from me? Honestly, probably essays pertaining to whatever my mind has conjured up recently. A few that will probably crop up are my thoughts on the meaning of life, reflections on what I value, and me drifting in and out agnosticism. These prompts will probably centre around “why?” and “why not?” modes of thought.

This site would probably end up becoming a place where I store my internal existential and moral inquiries as they come up. I will try to maintain publishing something at least once a week, but frankly, my schedule is unstable and I can’t really promise you anything. I’m eager to read any response you make, so, if you’re willing, please share your perspectives. It would make this journey a lot more meaningful if I know there is at least someone out there willing to entertain my thoughts seriously.

Well, thank you for reading until here and I hope to see you around!